I love to read. Many books move me, and it's fair to say that more than once I have proclaimed 'that book changed my life!'. Some people will know that more than others because if I love a book, I love to share it. A precious few books will stay with me forever. Some are recent discoveries. Some date far back, and are all but forgotten until current events force you into a state of contemplation and reflection...
There's a book I read whilst at school. I was 10 years old and my Dad had just been diagnosed with cancer of the throat. He'd been given six months to live. The cruel reality of his disease would take him away from me in less than three.
He was my life. My saviour, and my hero. After several years of absolute horror (long story, best not disclosed here) he had rescued me and, as far as I was concerned, I lived in safety. I was happy. I was loved.
He died.
I had an amazing teacher throughout all this. She was there for me in many ways, ways which only now as an adult I can fully comprehend and understand. And, ironically, never thank her for in person. She made me (yes, MADE me) read a book called "Fireweed", which after a quick whiz on Amazon I find out is written by Jill Paton Walsh. At age 10, with your whole life capsizing about your ears, you don't really pay attention to this kind of detail...
So, the book... well, I have to read it again before I can comment on its literary attributes. And I will. I have just ordered it. However I don't need to read it again to recall the impact it had on me in 1987. The story concerns two London orphans left behind in the child evacuation of WWII and, despite everything working against them, they flourish and survive in the hostile environment they find themselves in. "Fireweed" - the title - refers to a rare flower that manages to grow in the most extreme of environments. In fact, it thrives in these conditions.
Even at age 10 I understood the book - its context and its relevance. God bless you, Mrs Parker. Your insight was, and is, incredible. But, with the onset of hormones, it was inevitably forgotten. Until today...
I read an article in the paper that this flower was found growing amongst the two-month old ruins of a bombed-out school in Iraq, in a villlage that had been razed to the ground with over 200 fatalities and where no life remained.
Being 10 years old and losing your Dad, or being a villager burned out of your home... being in a relationship that's faultering, or a family dispute, or any situation where you feel life just can't possibly treat you any worse...
I was reminded - with a clarity that only comes once in a while - that no matter how shitty life gets, it still manages to grow. And some good always sprouts from the destruction...
Sunday, May 07, 2006
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4 comments:
That's nice. Now I'm REALLY f-in' depressed! Say something funny, it suits you MUCH better!
xxx
Wish I'd read your latest blog post before I mailed you tonight....
Why is it that the clarity you so eloquently speak of isn't carried with us always??
I hope with all my heart that there's a little 'fireweed' growing in all our lives.
x
OMG Mr John - serious hat or what!!!
You are complete inspiration and I love your passion.
Miss you lots
Sam X
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